Monday, May 24, 2010

I'm Slipping

I used to blog everyday, sometimes twice a day depending on what was going on. But lately I've noticed that days can go by and I will have not written anything.

Oh but that's all about to change, it's the summer time. My life is... well it's living. And I'm happy, I don't know where this sudden burst of happiness came from but the feeling is one that is extremely addicting.

It feels good to smile and actually, truly be happy. Yeah, there are some people and some situations that are trying me but, I'm holding on and remaining in control, which was hard for me at one point.

I haven't had sex since the beginning of time and although since last Thursday I have been experiencing those crazy urges, I'm handling my hormones quite well. However, I'm not gonna lie, jumping bones would be overly satisfying right about now.

Anyways, my lit. class had me bugging today because we had a group project due and of course, there is that one slacker who did nothing. Yeah I was stressed but I'm cool now. I'm still falling in love with the class so this minor bump will not slow me down.

Well, that's about all the rambling I want to do right now. BTW, I've lost 13 lbs since I began working out... aww shucks I'ma be a powerhouse under the basket in the fall, lookout now.

peace and blessings

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

I Must Say

I quite enjoyed myself the other day. It nice, actually having a conversation with my friend face to face. It was kinda like old times except, he was the taller one and pushing me around for once lol.

But it was cool all the say. I do believe I ruined a small portion of his day but, he "said" he was cool with it. We gotta do that again...

In fact, that whole day was a better day for me than the previous, for on the previous day I had a severe meltdown in front of tons of people. School had really almost taken me out, but I'm good now praise God.

I've only been in this African-American Lit. Class for two days and yet I have already fallen in love with it. I am so excited about this class that I get there early just to talk to Dr. Dandridge about the things she has experienced herself.

The history of my people fascinates me, and I am so eager to learn more.

Sunday, May 9, 2010

We're Losing

I woke up this morning to hear that two more of God's children were called home. I feel like the kids of my generation aren't listening yet.

God is calling his numbers. Every weekend we lose another one of us and it's killing me. We have to stop ignoring this message He is sending us. It's not the club that is killing us. Nor is it the alcohol, or the drugs, or even the guns. It's us.

We are destroying ourselves. Everyday we make decisions that jeopardize our lives. We have got to step up and start living right. Otherwise we will be what destroys our families, schools, and this may be a bit far-fetched but even this country.

We are losing, with every funeral, with every tear, with every crying mother, brother, sister, father... we are losing. We have to stand up and take charge. Don't follow me, walk with me, please.

I weep for my generation, God is trying to tell us something and yet with all of our losses we're still not listening. When are we gonna wake up? In these days, we need to stay prayed up. We owe it to our friends, brothers, sisters, and even our enemies that we've lost to make changes. Killing each other isn't gonna do anything but wipe us out. R.I.P. y'all

R.I.P to all that have lost their lives. We love you.

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Have Faith in Your Decisions

"Sweetie, you know what you want in life and love and you know you deserve true love. Stop second guessing your emotions and make the decision you want to. God is gonna take care of you as soon as you do what he wants you too. And that is listen to your heart and follow Him as He guides you. That goes for love and for your dancing. Because I know you want it and I know you miss it."

Sister McLaughlin is right. I gotta have a little more faith in the decisions I make otherwise I'ma be in a world of hurt. I've made my decision and I'm gonna take these two chances and run with them.

They are where my heart is at. No longer will I sacrifice lifetime happiness for temporary satisfaction.

So, now all I gotta do is, find a ministry that I can feel comfortable in and, well that other thing is now taken care of, if you will.