The Holiday

Hmmm where to start...

Turkey Day was pretty good, food was good, fam was cordial for a change, friends were amazing as always and the man in my life, ugh!!! I did some house hopping and went to my fav spot down the street from the house and did a lil thinking. So the day was pretty good. But...

I got dumped!!!! Now that I'm over the whole situation it's kinda funny but seriously? He calls me and says (this is the funny part----->) "baby, you know i love you right" (lol sounds like b.s. already) "but i don't think this is gonna work, i just, i just don't deserve a good woman like you." Now really... who says stuff like that in real life? He coulda just told me the truth... that he had a side "jant." I woulda still been mad, but it woulda been the truth! ugh!!!

Anyways other than that my holiday weekend was great, I went to a few bball games and even got my wig done... major thanx to the ladies at miriams african hair braiding in colonial heights who did my 12-hour hair style in less than 8 hours! y'all are the bestest!!! went to the movies and saw the blind side and it was soooooo good... sandra bullock did execellent!

hmmm what else... oh yeah the cowboys are still number 1 in the nfc east and the longhorns pulled out a great win over the aggies so my weekend wasn't all that bad...

My friends kept me laughing all weekend long and for that I am thankful :)

More Than a Ball Player

For the last 16 years I've been in love with the game of basketball, and all I ever wanted to be was a professional ball player. That is up until my junior year in high school when I realized I wanted to teach. But even then I still had a passion for the game and I told myself I would never let it go. And I haven't, but lately it seems like all I hear from people is "Courtney's the next WNBA Superstar!" And as much as I would love to be that "superstar" I'm more than a ball player. I do so much off the court and yet it seems as if all people can seem to talk about is the (conceited moment coming... now->) gorgeous jump shot I have or the air-tight defense that made me defensive player of the year every year I ever played travel and high school ball. And although I love playing ball and my passion for it has grown over the years, I'm ready for people to see me as more than Courtney the ball player and see me as Courtney the person. For I've done and will do greater things off the court than I have on the court.

Good Conversation

A truly good conversation is one that you remember word for word days after the conversation has ended. In fact, it's so good that when you're reminiscing about the conversation you feel the same emotions you felt at those very moments. You'll still smile on the inside and the outside. You'll still remember the facial expressions the other person made, and you'll still laugh out loud even when you're in a room by yourself... hmmm now thats food for the soul, good conversation. I need to get me some of that.

Just a Thought

Does anyone really know what they want? Seriously, think about it... people always say they want this, this, and that. They want perfect friends, the perfect man/woman, and the life they dreamed of as a kid.

But who really knows what they want... but not only that, could people actually handle getting what they want. For example, people who say they want to win the lottery and actually do don't seem to use the money the way they said they would. They blow it!

It's funny because this is how people treat life. They find friends who they ask for nothing more than to be honest with them at all times and then when they do just that, people blow the friendship by getting upset. Can't handle it!

Or what about when people are in love... or like lol and they want a significant other that will be good to them but they blow it by living in the past or making the new person pay for what the old one did. Can't handle it still.

With that being said... who really knows what they want, and if they got what they wanted could they even handle it? I'll admit, I don't know if I could truly handle getting what I want because I haven't gotten it yet. But I can be 100% sure that I know what I want because like many I've gotten enough of what I didn't want to know.

sitting here at the round table

so, today is the day that a group of my friends and i are having one of our "round table discussions." (and yes we are actually sitting at a round table) lol. but in all seriousness, we have these discussions twice a week and the topic of choice is always changing, but today one of the guys was trippin off this girl he's been talkin' too lately, about how she complained about all the guys that did her wrong and how she'd been waiting for a good man to come along and treat her right.

so with that... we ladies here at the round table began to inform them of what a good man is and exactly what we want from him. however the guy's think we're asking for too much so i'm gonna pause for a minute, state my claim to them and state it here

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okay... now i'll admit it i did just tell them what i was expecting may be a bit much at this point in my life but um, i know what i want, it's just a matter of finding it.

a good man in the opinions of the ladies and i here at the round table is respectable, honest, accepting of who i am as a person, understanding, caring, open about how he feels, funny, smart, true to himself, and willing. i want someone who i'll be able to have good conversation with, serious and pointless. random conversation, conversation in which the stress seems to be released. someone who'll ask how my day was, and actually listen... someone who'l let me in without reluctance when they need someone to be there for them. is that so much to ask? it's not like we're asking for the house on the hill, the yacht, the bentley, and the biggest diamond in the jewlery store. in fact, none of that materialistic stuff matters. what's the point of having a huge house if the people who live in it dont want to be a family.

hmmm maybe there's a reason as to why people end up with the people they "think" they want. because when it comes to relationships, who really knows what they want? i wonder if i'm sure in what i want? but thats another blog huh? guess i'm on to the next.

yeah, i'm feelin like... that

have you ever had feelings for someone but then kind of regretted it after the fact? well not regretted it because thats how you felt but kinda felt like you may have made a friendship awkward... well thats how i felt. my friends told me that i might have been coming on too strong and i felt like they were right so instead of fallin' back, i stepped away and yet... im feelin' like i shouldn't have... so yeah, i'm feelin like that.

whats crazy is though after i expressed my feelings i was expecting for everything to just fall into place and it didn't... i mean, i dont know. but yeah things didn't seem like they were working in my favor so i kinda set my feelings aside and settled. now don't get me wrong, the relationship i'm in now is okay but, UGH! in the back my mind i'm still carrying those feelings for my friend. so yeah, i'm feeling like that.

i mean my boo is a good dude, don't get me wrong but he's not everything i want in a man, something is missing. so you can understand why i feel like i settled can't you... or maybe you can't. i don't know why i stopped tryin to "talk" to my friend knowing that he pretty much had it going on inside and out and i just effed it up, so yeah im feeling like that.

but hey, who's to say things won't change and i'll get my head on straight in enough time to gain that trust and affection that i want... so yeah, i'm feeling like this.

what's my name???

miss extraordinary, coconut, big-point, big head, ... all of these names and yet not one of them describes me in full... maybe thats why i have so many. or maybe its because not everyone who knows me, knows me. i mean, im real at all times but not all of me is on display at all times.

i can only be my true self, the good, the bad, and at times the ugly around a few people, the people who i trust whole-heartedly. who i know won't change their opinions, judge me, or shun me because of the decisions i've made and will make right, wrong, or stupid.

i guess miss extraordinary describes me in full but the name makes me think of a superhero. and that makes me wonder, could i be a superhero???? i mean, superheroes are strong in every sense of the word and i'm not... ugh!!!

oh well, i guess when it comes down to the right nickname for me the right person will bless me with it. whoever that is.

Ummmm

So.... hmmm I'm not quite sure where to start. I never really considered having a blog to be completely honest but after a suggestion from a friend and a few supporting statements from others here I am, or here my thoughts are. Since this is the first blog I guess I'll keep it simple.

Ummmm well, today was pretty chill so far I guess...

Well, I do have some things to do so I will definitely sign back in after work so that I can begin to "open my mind."