Nice

I need something to reassure me that even though I'm good, things are still getting better.

My life is finally coming together and I'm glad about it. Although it's taking a great deal of time, my family is healing, each of them in their own way. Slowly but surely they are coming along.

But my sister is being stubborn in her ways and it's beginning to annoy me. But, she's my sister and I gotta be there for her, I just wish she'd stop being so dang hard-headed. But, who I am to be mad about someones level of stubbornness when I can be quite stubborn myself.

My sisters are all going through there own situations, and yes I'm still making sure that I am there for them no matter what, but I've learned that I gotta let them be there for me as well. And they have, and I appreciate it so much.

I'm working, I'm reaching my goals, and getting closer to my dreams everyday. But something is still missing. God's got my back, I have my family, my friends, my sisters, and of course all of my extended family.

But something is still missing. Well someone rather... I love being able to call my brother, and my family in Texas, and my sisters but... every now and then I'd like to be able to call a him.

But, him is another blog.

Summer School Blues

At this very moment I am sitting in the library on the verge of tears. Why you ask? Because I am still working on this dreadful term paper that I can't seem to write.

If this is writer's block then ugh, I know why authors have to get away to write so much. I know I can do this but something is holding me back.

I just can't seem to get this right. It's driving me up the library walls. Oh well, back to it then... not doing anything until I get this paper finished.

#shoutout to the librarian in here who is letting me stay until 7 even though they closed @ 5, he's the greatest. And he's working on his own paper too lol.

You Look Happy

Today I went to my Alma mater, 'The Bland' as my little brother George calls it. To pick up a couple of books that I need for my African American Lit. paper (uuuuuuuugggggggggghhhhhhh).

Sorry, I had to release that.

Any who, my school didn't have the books I needed so I ended up calling in a favor from the librarians at 'The Bland' and they were happy to help.

Being there brought back some memories, good and bad, but I appreciate all of those memories. With them came learning experiences as well as friendships that will never end.

Everyone that I saw today said the same thing... "You look so happy." Them saying that actually made me think about it.

I am happy, I finally got it together. I keep saying that but it's such a good feeling to be, truly happy. It's one that I haven't felt in a long time and I am cherishing every moment of it.

So I got my life together, I'm happy. All I need now is... nope, not gonna push it, can't rush it... but like India and Alicia I'm ready.

#Random

He stalks me because he loves me. -My big sis-

Whenever I hold a conversation with my lil big sis there is never a dull moment. From our serious convos to special ones there is never a dull moment.

You couldn't buy this stuff on tv. Unscripted and unrehearsed lol. Which is why I am so excited about out Wonderbread Moments.

I wonder if the world could really handle us being our real selves. Telling' it like it 'tis and things of that nature. Hmph... who cares if y'all can handle it, we're still gonna do it nanny nanny boo boo.

SMH, this is gonna be too funny.

Be Ambitious, But Content

I've always tried to rush things. This generally happens when I'm going through something that I feel I can't handle.

But after a great deal of real fasting and prayer I realized that I have to wait on it. If I do everything in my power to put myself in the right position, then the right things will start happening.

I waited, and waited. I worked my butt off, but stayed in my place. And now, I am getting there, I'm here.

I feel so blessed to have made it this far. Now that things are happening for me I can truly say I am where I need to be in life...

So here I stand, on my own two feet, head high and mind opened, ready to take it all in.

So ambitious, yet so content.

Nappturality

I'm going natural.

I've been thinking about for a few years now but I always crawl back to the creamy crack that straightens my hair, because my hair "needs" it. But, no more chemical endangerment.

I want to make a change and this is the time to do it. When I won't need a relaxer because there will be no point. Swimming and basketball take a toll on my hair as is so why not take myself off the crack cold turkey?

I'm kinda excited because this will be a completely different thing for me. It's gonna be my journey from chemically dependent hair to... my hair. The way it was before I entered middle school.

I use to be so hell-bent on keeping my hair fried, dyed, and laid to the side that I ended up doing my hair harm. So no longer will I "fear the fro" I'm just going to let my hair do it's things.

I'm Slipping

I used to blog everyday, sometimes twice a day depending on what was going on. But lately I've noticed that days can go by and I will have not written anything.

Oh but that's all about to change, it's the summer time. My life is... well it's living. And I'm happy, I don't know where this sudden burst of happiness came from but the feeling is one that is extremely addicting.

It feels good to smile and actually, truly be happy. Yeah, there are some people and some situations that are trying me but, I'm holding on and remaining in control, which was hard for me at one point.

I haven't had sex since the beginning of time and although since last Thursday I have been experiencing those crazy urges, I'm handling my hormones quite well. However, I'm not gonna lie, jumping bones would be overly satisfying right about now.

Anyways, my lit. class had me bugging today because we had a group project due and of course, there is that one slacker who did nothing. Yeah I was stressed but I'm cool now. I'm still falling in love with the class so this minor bump will not slow me down.

Well, that's about all the rambling I want to do right now. BTW, I've lost 13 lbs since I began working out... aww shucks I'ma be a powerhouse under the basket in the fall, lookout now.

peace and blessings